The reason i am so desperate for finding god is bcoz my dad suffers from heart ailment and god is only hope?

This experience is probably happening to you so that you will finally make a sincere covenant with the Father that you will always obey all of Jesus' sayings ( Greek text ) no matter what may happen to you . Because that is only when God will intervene so that the Desires Of Your Heart are fulfilled . It is only a reasonable service that everyone obeys Jesus' teachings , because we are not here to waste our life with fun and games .